While reading a blog (and enjoying the reading except for that split moment) I had a thought and a moment that made me want to cry and vomit at the same time. It actually brought tears to my eyes.
In 16 weeks (give or take) I will begin seeing something that, although it is beautiful and I am ecstatic for them, will hurt me beyond words. The women due around the same time as I would have been will be giving birth. I will not be. I hope and pray that I will be pregnant and have seen a heartbeat by that time.
Please don't take it personally if, when this time comes, I'm not quick to comment. Please know that I am thinking of you and so very happy for you. I may just need time to grieve.
8 comments:
this makes me sad for you - but hopeful that you will see 2 lines an d a heartbeat soon
I'll be praying for 2 lines and a heartbeat for you.
As for me, that fateful date comes in 11 weeks, and I'm really hoping this little heart is still beating then.
Completely understandable.
Yeah, I am dreading that time myself.
I understand completely and am so very sorry. I do hope you have your own heart beating and little person growing very soon.
Oh, that is just SO understandable. I hope and pray that you will be pregnant by then too, I truly do.
Thank you so much for your lovely comments, A. I think you're a beautiful person. xoxoxox
That's understandable. ~hugs~
Yup, I tend to follow a blog until a pregnancy occurs. Then I just check in occasionally because it's too upsetting.
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