Bulletsssss

• I feel like a total douche for bitching about this pregnancy.
• I'm really grateful that I am where I am.
• I'm really jealous of my BFF who's pregnancy was the most beautiful thing in her life next to actually raising her daughter.
• The anxiety is worse. I guess it's my body's reaction to the hormone overloads going on?
• The puking started today.
• The puking gives me even more hope that things will be OK and I'll have a THB in late April, early May.
• Tim asked me if I've been thinking of names. I wanted to slap him.
• I finally have some Zofran!! I'm hoping to eat later today. :-)
• My children think the sound of me puking is hilarious.

I...We....I like...but...they said...

So I'm working on my register and I have no clue what to really put on it.  Some things I've pushed to Mr. W for him to figure out (i.e. research).  Others I'm trying to work on.  But there are so many conflicting reviews on just about everything. 

My main issue right now is bottles.  I plan on breastfeeding and pumping (don't I have lofty dreams).  Of course I'm aware that there's a possibility of formula feeding, and I'm fine with that.  But what in the world do I put the milk in?????  If any one has any suggestions I am soooo open right now.  What has worked for you?  What have you heard works?  What did you read about that worked?  And why or why not?

Thank you in advance!!!!  :-)

Wh-Wh-What??

• I'm 18 weeks today...this could quite possibly be 1/2 way!  Wow.  I mean...yeah.  Wow.


• I have a dresser being delivered.  It should arrive on Saturday.  It matches those two crib thingies I bought (which remain in the back of my vehicle).  Holy crap.


• I have repeatedly been told today how big I am.  Um...18 weeks with twins people, I'm not that big given the circumstances.


• I have repeatedly been told how huge I'm going to be by the time I give birth.  No shit Sherlock!


• Zantac has worked wonders with the heartburn.  It does seem a little odd that now that I've reduced my acid (get it...acid reducer) that my dinner has been sitting in my throat for a few hours now.  Whatever.  I'll compromise on this one and take longer to digest.


• When I told Mr. W that the heartburn had a lot to do with the fact that my stomach has less room to digest he felt it necessary to inform me that it will only get worse.  How sweet.  :-|


• Even Mr. W continues to remind me how huge I'm going to get.  Um...I'm quite aware of this.


• I've got to figure out where to get the dresser/changing table combo that matches the cribs and dresser.  Apparently it went out of stock after my order was placed.  Bummer.  But hopefully they'll release the money from my account ASAP and I can get one before they all go MIA. 


• Only 3 days until the big ultrasound!!!!

more bullets

• I'm over the GI bug (Thank God!!!)


• I can't eat yogurt anymore, but I can eat broth based soups.  And if I don't have my evening baked potato I can have a Butterfinger blast instead!


• I now own two cribs (no way in hell they're even coming out of the boxes for a couple of months).  We picked out these:  Simplicity Ellis - Cherry


• Mr. W's Dad and Grandad are paying for the cribs!!!


• I went ahead and bought the cribs before getting the money from the in-laws since they keep on going out of stock.  As soon as the check gets here we're ordering the matching dresser (as soon as it comes in stock) and dresser/changing table.


• Target was cheaper that BRU.  I saved $20 per crib!


• Mr. W is only a few weeks away from being ready to have carpet installed!!!!!


• The benefit of working for a physical therapist is getting free advice on stretches to help with hip and low back pain.


• I'm now showing enough that people who barely know me are asking if I'm pregnant.


• Scrubs can seriously hide a belly!


• I'm thinking these children will be on restriction until they're five at this point.  Firstly for keeping me so sick.  Secondly for not making their presence known, yet.  (I know it's still early.)  Just because each set of feet is pointed directly at a placenta...no excuses!  Get to being noticed!


• I'm trying to talk myself into ordering Chinese for dinner.  I really really really want it!  What's the worst thing that will happen?  I'll throw it back up?  Been there; done that.  The thought of it makes my stomach go all wonky, but the smell of it is heavenly...mmmmmmmmmmmm...


• DBTs are not fun.  Not.  At.  All.


• I've abandoned my mantra, "Next week will be better" as far as my nausea is concerned.  My new mantra is, "It will all be worth it in the end.  When I'm holding my babies in my arms."  I'll walk through fire if that's what it takes.


• This is truly how my thoughts run, now.  bullet.

Planning a trip to that store where you do that shopping

In case the title wasn't enough of a hint, Mr. W and I are going to attempt to go to Babies R Us this weekend.  I've been once since becoming pregnant, but that was a quick in and out for a Snoogle.  I don't thnk I'm really emotionally ready to go...But it's either suck it up or keep procrastinating and end up tucking these kids into our sock drawers.  Plus, I'm a big girl and it's time to act like it.  Let's just hope that my stomach acts like a big girl too and allows me to leave my house this weekend!

We need to pick out furniture.  My FIL has been bugging (and bugging and bugging and bugging...as in almost daily asking) us about picking out cribs so he can get them for us.  I am beyond grateful that he wants to and is doing this for us.  I'm not doing any sort of registry though; not yet.  I've had some other family members nagging me about it, but they'll get over it.  After my big u/s I'll suck it up and do it.

So why am I so stupid about going and picking out cribs?  Because then someone is going to buy them for us.  Then we'll have cribs in the house.  Then we'll have a nursery instead of an office (or guest bedroom...depending on whether or not the office will hold all of the furniture).  Then if something goes wrong we'll have to board up a room in the house.  OK, so that was possibly a little melodramatic, but you know what I mean.  My Mom asked me today if I was afraid I was going to jinx it by picking out cribs.  It was right then that I realized that it wasn't a fear of "jinxing" anything, it was a fear of if something were to happen, what would I do.  I'd have cribs in my house with no babies to put in them... 

But why am I even thinking these things?  Yeah, I had an ectopic (of sorts) but what does that have to do with this pregnancy?  It took us longer than expected to get properly pregnant, but we managed a (so far) successful twin pregnancy on our first round of Clomid.  I know so many things that can go wrong, but there's no reason why it would happen to these babies; of course there's usually no reason that the bad things happen anyway.

At the very beginning of this pregnancy I decided that I wanted to get everything possible done during the second trimester.  I kept on saying that I was waiting for an u/s to make sure everything was OK before I started.  Then I was waiting to find out the sexes (which I'll have to wait a little longer so of course certain things have to wait).  Now I keep thinking, I'll feel more secure once I feel them move.  Um...HELLO????  I saw them moving around just 2 days ago.  If I keep putting this off for one more security or another I'm going to run out of prep-time!

Now...onto needed advice.  Cribs and furniture.  I'm giving myself through the weekend to have them absolutely picked out.  I'm probably going to get them from a store that I can walk into and see them at (do furniture stores do baby furnitre?).  What criteria are you supposed to use to pick out cribs, anyway?  I'm so clueless.  You'd think that with all the time I've had on my couch I'd have done a little research, but I haven't.

Anyway...once again I have no flow and I'm doing a jumpy post.  Oh well.  That's really all I had to write about for now.  I'm brewing a post in my head about the hyperemesis vs morning sickness and the public reaction to it.  But that's another post.

Thank you in advance for any input anyone has!