Should I stay or Should I Go now

Farah Here reporting Live:

Amanda has been having some contractions/pain for about 24 hours now and mid morning today she called her OB's office.  The suggested that she take a trip to the L&D at the hospital.  So far so good.  She was contracting 2-4 mins apart on her way to the Hospital and she Does not want a VBAC so they gave her a shot of Terbu.taline to try and slow/stop things.  She is in good spirits, she said her phone battery is dead and Terb makes her Twitchy.  The L&D told her it would be along night so Send her all the good thought you can

Madness Ensues ***update***

I say ensues as if it only just began.  Wrong!  I'm 12DPO and I've been peeing on any helpless stick that pops into my line of sight.  I've gone through 2 boxes of FRER (2 per box), 6 or so Dollar Store test and 3 or 4 early-pregnancy-tests strips.  COME ON!!!  I've been POAS since 6DPO.  And what did I think this would accomplish?  Nothing.  Was I aware that there was no way I would see anything on a test before (at the earliest) 10DPO?  Yes.  But I've been doing it.  And they've all been negative.

OK.  I just totaled up the amount of tests I've waisted used.  At least 13 tests.  WTF?!?!  I had to have started before 6DPO.  I've only used two tests in one day for the past couple of days. 

Mr. W is finally home.  He was so sweet!!!  Instead of calling me to let me know he had landed safely, he showed up at my job with a dozen long stemmed pink roses.  As much as he can drive me crazy, he really is a sweetheart!  Then we went to lunch, even though he had been up since the morning before.  Over lunch I asked him if he wanted me to POAS tomorrow or to wait until Sunday (14DPO).  He was very quick to say Sunday.  He'd probably be even quicker to say that if he saw the bathroom trashcan and the way it overflows with negative tests.

So tomorrow Mr. W and I will leave early in the morning to visit my sick Grandma in Charlotte, NC.  And the following morning I'll POAS again.  Please please please please please let this be it!!!  (of course if it's not, I've got braces to look forward to!!!  :) )

 ***update***

AF is starting.  She's sent in her predecessors, Spot and nasty Cramp and is expected to blow in tomorrow.  A full day early.  Bitch.  At least I only waisted about 13 tests.  :-|

Day 1

So here I am at day one. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. I've ovulated and that is wonderful! But....

There's always a but out there. And it's usually big, at least to the one having to deal with it. I'm not even sure why I'm letting my but bother me right now. BUT I am.

And this but is even worse...cause it's what-ifs. What if I'm not pregnant? What if I don't get pregnant this cycle? What if the OPK was wrong and I didn't ovulate? What if my tubes are blocked and the egg can't get through?

Why do I do this to myself? One day past ovulation and I'm already consumed with these thoughts. I can't even enjoy the fact that I actually ovulated again.

Anyway...I have many thoughts on this, but since I'm already rambling, I'll leave it at this for now.

Thank you for letting me vent.