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• I feel like a total douche for bitching about this pregnancy.
• I'm really grateful that I am where I am.
• I'm really jealous of my BFF who's pregnancy was the most beautiful thing in her life next to actually raising her daughter.
• The anxiety is worse. I guess it's my body's reaction to the hormone overloads going on?
• The puking started today.
• The puking gives me even more hope that things will be OK and I'll have a THB in late April, early May.
• Tim asked me if I've been thinking of names. I wanted to slap him.
• I finally have some Zofran!! I'm hoping to eat later today. :-)
• My children think the sound of me puking is hilarious.

All she does is bitch & moan

Yup. That pretty much sums it up. I've decided...wait, I'm pretty sure I decided this a long time ago...I don't enjoy pregnancy*. Sure, there are parts of it that I love, but those parts are few and far between. I thought maybe it was just the boys pregnancy that was so not fun for me, but this pregnancy is following the same path as that one so far.

• Twin pregnancy - Around 5w3d I started feeling "queasy", but nothing that couldn't be cured with some food.
• This go-round - 4w5d I started feeling that old familiar feeling only food doesn't seem to help.
• Twin pregnancy - Around 6 1/2w the vomiting started. It was only slowed down by copious amounts of Zofran and Phenergan. I ended up getting 3 different IVs and many bags of fluids and other stuff and was only kept out of the hospital by a very determined doctor (no, she wasn't really a doctor, but who really is a doctor at the base medical clinic?) that understood we were switching insurance.
• This go-round - Today is 6w1d and I am doing my best to function. I haven't thrown up, yet, but...It's been rough. I'm currently waiting to hear from my doctor's office to hopefully get a fresh prescription for Zofran. At the rate things are progressing, tomorrow could bring copious amounts of vomit. I know I sound all Debbie-Downer, but this all-day-unrelenting nausea is only getting stronger.

One of the worst things about this crap (beside the obvious difficulties of taking care of rambunctious twin toddlers) is the anxiety that comes along with it. I was so glad that I documented my anxiety during the beginning of my pregnancy with the boys so I know this is routine for me.

On a good note, I'm pretty sure things are progressing as they should. I know I could be this sick and things could still go south, but really? I'm thinking good things.

And, No, I don't think it's twins. I think it's just my lot in life to have some nasty morning sickness (please no HG again!!!) with healthy pregnancies.



*I am very grateful for what I have, but that doesn't mean I have to like everything about it.