I finally heard from the doctor's office at 10:30 (they called in on another line after I had been sitting on hold with their office for about 2 minutes). My doctor had conferred with two other doctor's in the practice and they decided that although my numbers are not doing exactly what they would like, they're low enough. And they're moving in the downward direction. I did not have to have more methotrexate today. Yay!!!!
As soon as they told me this, I asked if they would have the doctor call in something for my nerves. Before I got serious with my TTC journey, I was on medication for anxiety. Up until this part of my journey, I have managed to keep my anxiety at bay. Not now. The roller coaster that I have been on is too much.
I have found myself on the verge of a pretty nasty cliff the past week. At the bottom of this cliff is a lot of nasty emotions. Emotions that I have managed to move past. Emotions that are not even real...they're reactions to unrealistic views that I had years ago. I do not want to go off this cliff and I will not go off this cliff.
So hopefully this roller coaster is coming to an end. Hopefully my numbers will continue to drop at a decent rate. Hopefully a few xa.nax are all I need to keep me sane until I manage to sort through all of this in my mind.
And there's always tomorrow! And tomorrow can always be something better than today!!!
Friday, October 12, 2007
Thursday, October 11, 2007
update
4 days after the methotrexate hCG is 36
7 days after the methotrexate hCG is 32
9 days after the methotrexate hCG is 29
This is only a 9% drop. The doc says it's not good enough. They waited until 5:15 to call me and tell me this (if anyone can tell me the point of putting a "stat" on my blood order, I'd appreciate it). Tomorrow morning they'll call me to let me know what time to come in for more shots. I'll have to go by the pharmacy and pick up the vials of stuff, first. Then it will be back to work because they're pissed about all the time I've missed because I can't even do an ectopic pregnancy correctly.
Tonight's dinner consisted of a caramel and chocolate syrup sundae, cookies, and pretzels (I did not mix the sugar with the salt, at least).
7 days after the methotrexate hCG is 32
9 days after the methotrexate hCG is 29
This is only a 9% drop. The doc says it's not good enough. They waited until 5:15 to call me and tell me this (if anyone can tell me the point of putting a "stat" on my blood order, I'd appreciate it). Tomorrow morning they'll call me to let me know what time to come in for more shots. I'll have to go by the pharmacy and pick up the vials of stuff, first. Then it will be back to work because they're pissed about all the time I've missed because I can't even do an ectopic pregnancy correctly.
Tonight's dinner consisted of a caramel and chocolate syrup sundae, cookies, and pretzels (I did not mix the sugar with the salt, at least).
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